I failed, me & Pprom

Who cares....

Pprom, post traumatic stress disorder baby loss and saving baby lives...

That failing feeling

Who did I think I was, I failed....

Do I need to be Famous to get people to believe in pprom ?

Do I have to be famous to gain donations

Sorry

I'm not famous....

This girl feels like she has failed....

I loss my baby Sinead Speakman on the 15th April 2010, my waters had broke prior

I fought to keep pregnant

I failed her....

I fought to get justice, no one kept their promise when I agreed an settlement out of court

I failed her....

I had a 3 hour Health ombudsman team, who came from London to the High Peak, they promise to investigate, they never did

I failed her...

I failed to get 100,000 signatures on our petiton

I failed her....

I failed to convince 3 MP's to speak in parliament on my behalf

I failed her.....

I failed to get £60,000 in donations for Pprom research (I learnt it cost millions)

I failed her....

This just giving page we started in 2014, I am not even over £5000

Our amazing team is over £20,000 but we not famous enough to get the donations rolling in, I sit listening to the amazing researchers and I feel like I am failing them...

I have ran 2 London marathons, half marathons and plenty of 5k, and jump 13,000 ft rom a plane and so much more

Yet...

Why do I feel such an failure

I feel like I failed her

When we have brought back Rcog guidelines and patient leaflets,

We were not invited down to the event that could have made our day

I failed her...

I failed to get on This Morning last year

They told me more important subjects were in the press at the time

Pprom did not matter...

I failed her...

We paid into the ukoss research project and the uclh pprom stem cell pprom research to reseal the membranes

( see here, https://www.facebook.com/634477469905381/posts/3371299606223140/ )

But I still feel like I have failed her...

Why...

Because I needed a research project in memory of my first born

I wanted to prove that mummy wasn't a failure

Please if you reading this tonight, please comment on our posts, and invest in us

Help us proved to this World we do NOT need to be famous to make this happen

Prove to the World the goodness of what my failings have become

Because I feel I am trying so hard and at moment I feel like I am falling her....

I feel like I am failing you....

When I type Pprom into Google, Little Heartbeats does not come up

I feel like I failed you.....

Someone famous recently loss their babies to pprom and I feel like I failed her

This couple have raised thousands in 4 days for pprom research which is amazing in the name of their babies...

Its amazing....

But we failed her because she didn't know we existed and maybe had I been famous

She may have found us....

Then they maybe they may not have been so alone in thinking no one cared about Pprom

I am so sorry....

Maybe more could have been saved if I hadn't of failed...

My post traumatic stress disorder is telling my head its failed

Please for the love of pprom and Little Heartbeats

Send us a Pick us up, and help us break the silence...

To prove to Sinead she mattered, no matter how small she was and how short her life within was....

And I didn't fail....

We have a song which I co wrote with Nicole and it is my wish we can prove that we don't need to be famous for the girl next door who talks about her dead baby

(Our song is here,

https://www.facebook.com/PpromAwarenessUK/videos/663324347590415/ )

That next door girl,being Me and the team have saved others from the heartache I endured

We know our free pprom care packs are helping but we cannot prove this without you sharing....

But unless you tell people about this

About Little Heartbeats and pprom

Then no one knows we exist...

Can you foresee life without Little Heartbeats?

We have failed to break the silence

Our free care pprom care packs have

Save other babies lives

In fact its saved our mums lives