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Rainbow 🌈 baby


Behind every rainbow 🌈 baby


There is one hell of a journey


No one understands this unless they have been through this


As a woman who lost her first baby because of my complications after losing my waters

When myself and my partner discussed having a baby


He wasn't really keen as didn't want us to go through losing an other baby


The only way he agreed to try again was that I had to have a pregnancy plan.


I spoke with a few consultants, and decided to go with the one who offered me a cervical stitch and regular lab testing of samples.


Despite the risks to this procedure


I felt it was the right option for me


A week or so after my stitch I was in A & E & I had to convince the nurse to lab test my urine.


The results of the dipstick were clear but my lab results, equal ecoli


The emotional rollercoaster of this pregnancy was in a word worrying, scary


Any pain, any lack of movements I was at the hospital


When they took my stitch out at 36 weeks, I just wanted my baby girl to be born.


She kept me waiting for a few more weeks.


At that point I hadn't even brought a pram or car seat


As I was so anxious in case my waters broke and I would end up losing another baby


I was petrified


I actually felt my pregnancy had been stolen with my anxiety


I ended up requesting to be induce as my anxiety was not great.


Her birth started off great and I was in the water pool, as so wanted a water birth


However my luck wasn't in, as after they broke my waters, in which there was a room fall of water


My baby heart rate went rapidly down


I had to have IV antibiotics as I had been confirmed group b strep


It went rapidly fast


She was born by emergency c section, nearly a general


It felt surreal & there is a part of me, that was overwhelmed


How she looked like her older sister


We talk about our rainbow babies


But we forget to talk about us mothers and how difficult that pregnancy after loss is


I hope in the future that perinatal nurses are introduced to mums who lose their babies & when they are lucky enough to be able to bring this special baby into the World


It's one hell of a journey


Hope after the storm


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